I was just talking to my lady, Drea, and as usual she inspires me to the max. She's a great writer, and I'm rethinking that I should put more personal stuff on my blog. I don't mind people reading my stuff anyway, so why not? I'm so happy for Drea. She seems to be in such a great spot in her life, and she's exudes happiness and beauty. She's about 19 weeks pregnant, engaged to the love of her life, and just doing great things. She is just an amazing and beautiful person, inside and out. I hope to one day be as happy. I love you, Dre.



Speaking of happiness, I am probably the happiest that I've been since childhood, probably. And it's not because of something I'm doing, or because of a significant other... I'm happy with me! I've made SO many mistakes in my life, but I don't regret any of them. They are all learning experiences to me. I'm stronger than I have ever been, I know who my true friends are (and i cherish the shit out of them), I love my amazing family, and I love the person who I am becoming. I know I've hurt a lot of people in my life, and I'm apologetic for that, but everything happens for a reason and I'm okay with that.
Music is touching me like it never has before, as well. I'm recording with some crazy talented artists, singing my ass off, and networking to the fullest. Even if nothing comes out of it, I still feel amazing just being able to share music and perform. I couldn't survive without music, and I'm more passionate about it than anything else (singing & dancing included). I thank God everyday for giving me the ability to love music and be talented with singing and dancing.
I have so much love in my heart lately and I just want to share it with everyone. Even my enemies, who I pray for more on the regular. I don't mind not being liked or hated on, because haters just need help in their lives and hopefully they'll find their way.

Okay, this was a crazy blog update.

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funk

*At a stand still
*I don't really understand this life
*I need a change of scene
*This year is all about music, art, healthfulness, and ME!
*I would like to move again as soon as possible
*I miss my wifey
*I lost 5 lbs this past week, but it's not making much of a difference
*I want a new job. Working from home is depressing.
*I need to make some music (record over fresh beats, start a band, etc) asap
*I need to learn how to only focus on the positive (i guess this post isn't proving that so much, huh?)
*I must use my skills that I excel in and do something great, like I am meant for
*I have to not let things get to me that won't matter in the grand scheme!!!!
*I must love more
*I must care more
*I must listen more intently
*I must write more
*I must read twice as much as I already do
*I must take and give good advice
*I must spoil myself (in a good way)
*I need to use the computer less than I do
*I need to keep my focus on exercising and putting only natural things into my body
*I have to keep my focus on drinking less booze (even though I've gotten exceptionally better at it already)
*I must continue to be myself!


I guess this was a sort of New Year's resolution list?
Even though, I don't usually like making those, this is more of some goals I would like to accomplish this year.

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