tasteless

sleeping on the moon and dreaming on the sun
hot cold
hot cold
I like the cold
the heat hurts my life
atoms and explosions
my brain and my heart
stay out of both and fall in the sewer's mouth
he thinks you taste good
but he spits out your soul

one truth

"One
basic
truth can
be used as
a foundation for
a mountain of lies,
and if we dig down deep
enough in the mountain of lies,
and bring out that truth, to set it
on top of the mountain of lies; the entire
mountain of lies will crumble under the weight of
that one truth, and there is nothing more devastating to a
structure of lies than the revelation of the truth upon which
the structure of lies was built, because the shock waves of
the revelation of the truth reverberate, and continue to
reverberate throughout the Earth for generations to
follow, awakening even those
people who had no
desire to be
awakened
to the
truth."

~Delamer Duverus

just saying...

you could write a poem about her eyelashes alone.

<3

ventilate

I wish I could figure out why people try to be someone they're not.  It's probably my biggest pet peeve.  Figure out who you are.  Don't  be someone's carbon copy and act like you thought of it yourself.  Don't steal people's art and try to pass it as your own.  That's filthy.  If you like something, like it because it truly touches your heart... not because it's what's cool or will make you edgy.  Give correct propers.  BE YOUR DAMN SELF.  you'll be much more respected. you'll love yourself much more. you'll be at peace with yourself.  nobody can possibly be at peace with themselves when they're constantly trying to impress everyone.

"I like being unimpressive. I sleep better." - that dood in Garden State =o)

/end rant

what's in that needle?

I've been torn for awhile now about whether or not I want to get the baby vaccinated.  I've really been at a battle with myself about it.  I still kind of am, but my girl Felicia (baby Jayla's mama), sent me some helpful links and info the other day.  It's sickening what goes into these vaccines. Formaldehyde? Antifreeze? MSG? Mercry? Animal organ and tissue blood?  Absolutely horrifying and repulsive.  I think I have my answer.  I'm sure I will get a butt load of flack from some people, but when it comes down to it, it's my baby.  I don't want him/her having a link to autism and other horrible issues.

Read for yourself:

Click! for the Shocking Truth

kissmekillme

i know you won't swallow your pride
your pride is like razors
stabbed me in the heart on more than one occasion
you can still see my scars
scars in such an intricate pattern
to make sure i will never forget the impact you had
if those scars weren't so beautiful,
i'd hate your existence
they tell a story
of incense and cigarettes and paint fumes and lipstick
the most color that has ever been in my world
and it faded back to black and white
but i love gray
gray is familiar
gray is convenient
gray is comfortable
but it was you all along
giving me life and killing me at the same time
you're detrimental to my survival
you're detrimental to my demise.

now is the time to self actualize

<3saul<3

my brain ran dumb.

where did all the people i love care about go?

everyone is disappearing when i need them the most.

i love the colours of fall and spring.

summer hurts.

pumpkin ravioli is the best.

i've learned more in the past year, than i've learned in my whole life.

that's not true.

all of high school all of high school and middle school.

who knows?

if i have a daughter, she's going to have Deery Lou everything.

take me to Tokyo.

I don't want miss booze at all.

i look like young Liza Minnelli. kill me.

BIG EYES are beautiful eyes.

"breakout in a moonage daydream oh yeah"

fireworks make m3 jumpy.

change isn't always good. sometimes changing things makes it lose their nostalgia.

lomography.

the snoring is out of control.

try your hardest and prosper in this mixed up world.

kill them with kindness

lose yourself in music, art, dance, creativity.

i still have a hard time believing that i'm going to have a watermelon in my stomach, very soon. <3

my eyes hurt.

my brain ran dumb

get it?

a lie is a lie is a lie.

.realeyesrealizereallies.

wifey, come back to me.

amazetits.

pregnantbewbz.

one love

i love yew.

i love m3.

i love my bun.

<3<3<3<3

Fearless

I don't know whether to laugh or cry

And I don't know whether to live or die

I kept my love for her locked deep inside

It cuts like a knife

She's out of my life

Out of my life, out of my hair

Out of my mind, there's no love in there

I move on, move on

Dear God, I wasn't breast fed

And most of my conversations with men seem to revolve around music

I'm no musician but the pain has been instrumental

My sense finally tune the instruments of, of, of

Of being lost

Of being lonely

Of being loved

Of being human

Man, I could use a metaphor, but I can't get beyond this shit

I could use someone to talk to

But most of my conversations with men seem to revolve around music

I am a poet who composes what the world proses

And proses what the world composes

Damned indecision and cursed pride

I kept my love for her locked deep inside

And I don't know what to do to get it through to you

Get out of my life tonight

Get out of my life

Out of my life, out of my hair

Out of my mind, cause no lovin fair

I move on, move on

She had nothing, but time on her hands

Silver rings, turquoise stones, and purple nails

I rub my thumb across her palm

A feather bed where slept a psalm

Though I walked, I used to fly, and now we dance

I watch my toenails blacken and walk a dead end path

'til she woke me with the knife edge of her glance

I have the scars to prove the clock strikes with her hands

And I don't know what to do
To get it through to you
And I don't know what to do
To get it through
Out of my life, out of my hair
Out of my mind, 'cause no lovin' fair
I move on, move on, I move on

randies love & interests

old school Ninja Turtles


the French language


Costume jewelry


opera gloves


OG ghetto blasters


Double Dees clothing


Hare Krishna


Rafe Spall


gumball machines


the LES


mass transit


lab sessions

<3

swervgay

Haven't done one of these in a minute, so here goes:

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5'8ish

2. Have you ever smoked before?
only crack and meth, obviously

3. Do you own a gun?
super soaker whatwhat

4.What's your favorite sport to watch?
dance competitions haaay

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
a billion and 5

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
they are so worth the stink ass burps, especially corn dogs.

7. What is your favorite Christmas song?
i despise xmas music, unless it's the Jackson 5 xmas album. i can listen to that ish all year, no lies.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
waterwaterwater or oj or cranburry juice

9. Do you do push-ups?
in my wii fit workout, im buff

10. Have you ever done ecstacy?
too many times back in the day. so gross.

11. Do you like spam?
the "meat" or spam mail? how about i don't enjoy either?

12. Do you like painkillers?
if i need some pain to be murdered, for sho

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
tell them i hate them

14. Do you own a knife?
steak and butter

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
oh fa sho

16. Full initials?
jay pee ess

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
i'm going to wii workout after this
i'm going to shower after wii workout
i'm going to work after wii workout and shower

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today
i didnt buy anything today. i'm fiending to thrift though

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink.
water, and recently cranburry juice

20. What time did you wake up today?
ten firty

21. Do you want to stay a virgin until you are married?
doesnt everyone do that?

22. Current worry?
will i be able to sing tonight at this show? im still a bit sicky

23. Current hate?
honestly can't think of anything at the moment, wowies.

24. Favorite place to be?
disney world, ahdoy. oh, and inside you.

25. Least favorite place to be?
somewhere that smells bad

26. Where would you like to go?
how about disney world?

27. Where are you?
office

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
fat housewife or famous

29. Do you burn or tan?
i win for most tan pale italian

30. Favorite color/s?
purple. you knew this.

31. Would you be a pirate?
who wouldn't?

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
saturday night @ password's beef celebration

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
for some reason i always sing the girl's part in "cher chez la ghost". i don't know why, but that seems to be my shower song of choice.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
the candyman

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
devin bc he bags austrian chicks like what

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
popples... still got them

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
broken wrist or ovarian cyst. i rhyme.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
5s

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Wackers St. George

42. Who is your most silent friend?
ummmmmmmmm do i have those?

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
everyone ever

44. Do you wish on stars?
on occasion

45. What song do you want played at your funeral?
"do i look like a slut?" ~avenue dee

yezzir

for⋅give  [fer-giv] -gave, -giv⋅en, -giv⋅ing.
–verb (used with object)
1. to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.); absolve.
2. to give up all claim on account of; remit (a debt, obligation, etc.).
3. to grant pardon to (a person).
4. to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one's enemies.
5. to cancel an indebtedness or liability of: to forgive the interest owed on a loan.

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kar⋅ma  [kahr-muh]
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–noun
1. Hinduism, Buddhism. action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation: in Hinduism one of the means of reaching Brahman. Compare bhakti (def. 1), jnana.
2. Theosophy. the cosmic principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.
3. fate; destiny.
4. the good or bad emanations felt to be generated by someone or something.




live by these words.

funk

*At a stand still
*I don't really understand this life
*I need a change of scene
*This year is all about music, art, healthfulness, and ME!
*I would like to move again as soon as possible
*I miss my wifey
*I lost 5 lbs this past week, but it's not making much of a difference
*I want a new job. Working from home is depressing.
*I need to make some music (record over fresh beats, start a band, etc) asap
*I need to learn how to only focus on the positive (i guess this post isn't proving that so much, huh?)
*I must use my skills that I excel in and do something great, like I am meant for
*I have to not let things get to me that won't matter in the grand scheme!!!!
*I must love more
*I must care more
*I must listen more intently
*I must write more
*I must read twice as much as I already do
*I must take and give good advice
*I must spoil myself (in a good way)
*I need to use the computer less than I do
*I need to keep my focus on exercising and putting only natural things into my body
*I have to keep my focus on drinking less booze (even though I've gotten exceptionally better at it already)
*I must continue to be myself!


I guess this was a sort of New Year's resolution list?
Even though, I don't usually like making those, this is more of some goals I would like to accomplish this year.

<3