Monday, November 1, 2010
have you ever felt like a train is rolling over your chest? like you can't breathe and it just won't let up. i feel like this almost always. my nerves are shot from this pregnancy. i'm constantly worrying that something is going to happen to Miette or to me and I won't be able to take care of her. Meditation hasn't been working. Migraines have started. so horribly, that i can't even form words. my fingers get numb. and i lose my peripheral vision. and i lose my lunch, as well. just another thing to panic about. I want nothing more than to be blissful with my daughter and just let things be put in god's hands. it's never that simple with me. i wish i could truly be a birdie and fly south to rejuvinate myself for like a week, and come back refreshed and free from worry. i don't think that i'll ever be free from worry. this is such a bummer of a blog update, but i needed a little ventilation. deal with it. i just need to breathe deep.